Tá tú thart orm

Tá tú I gceartlar mo chroi

(You surround me)

Tá tú thart orm

(You indwell me)

Tá tú I gceartlar mo chroi

(You surround me)

You surround me

(Tá tú thart orm)

You indwell me

You’re beside me

(Tá tú ag mo thaobh)

Ever present always near

You’re the whisper

(Is tú ag cogar)

Calling my name gently

(Ag glaoch m’ainm)

Love eternal

(Grá go siorai)

Reaching to me helous for me

(Ag faire orm)

Go héadmhar dom



I will stay with You forever

Arm in arm we’ll walk together

You will never let me go

I can’t live my life without You

My whole will to live is for You

You’ve awakened me to know

You surround me, You indwell me

You’re beside me, ever present always near

You’re the whisper calling my name gently

Love eternal reaching to me jealous for me

I will stay with You forever

Arm in arm we’ll walk together

You will never let me go

I can’t live my life without You

My whole will to live is for You

You’ve awakened me to know

Is tú ag cogar

Go samh m’ainm

Gra go siorai

I will stay with You forever

Arm in arm we’ll walk together

You will never let me go

I can’t live my life without You

My whole will to live is for You

You’ve awakened me to know

A Dhia fanfaidh mé leat choiche

(God I will stay with you forever)

Lamh ar lamh le chéile

(Arm in arm together)

Ni scaoilfidh tú mé riamh

(You will never let me go)

Ni fiú ni fiú mo bheatha gan tú

(My life is not worth it, not worth it without You)

Thug tú cúis ‘s ciall dom’ shaoil-se

(You give meaning and sense to my life)

Mhúscail tú mo chroi

(You awakened my heart)

On the request of my buddy, Josh, here’s my blog on Chat Logs…

They’re cool… I’m talking bout MSN logs here by the way.. I mean, I don’t mean to like save them all, just cause you don’t notice them cause they’re so small… But I’ve got chat logs from like 4 years ago. Hehe, it’s so funny to see how stupid you were when you were younger.

Yeah, the biggest thing with me and my bud, Josh are the girls.. Haha. I dunno we were each others go-to person when it comes to advice about girls.. and MAN, how stupid were we? Reading through these old logs from when we were… 15 or 16? haha… they’re jokes.

It’s really funny though, cause reading through this stuff is like… I dunno, seeing a video tape of yourself, on the computer that is. meh, it’s great.

Just for amusement… here’s a log between me and Josh when on… 2002? that was 16… oh and, I dun even know what this was about, causer we’re not that big a basketball fan…

[23:00] .·´¯`·- Mä:..: ^_^

[23:00] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: Hey you watching this???

[23:00] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: 3 mins left 75-73 Tor!

[23:00] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: 77-73 now!

[23:00] Joseph says: i’ve been in my room for 4 hourstalking about this and doing my ddrama

[23:00] Joseph says: ok i need to watch that

[23:00] Joseph says: afk

[23:00] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: lol

[23:05] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: STUPID RAPTORS!

[23:07] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: STUPID RAPTORS!

[23:07] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: STUPID RAPTORS!

[23:07] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: STUPID RAPTORS!

[23:07] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: STUPID RAPTORS!

[23:07] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: STUPID RAPTORS!

[23:07] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: STUPID RAPTORS!

[23:07] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: STUPID RAPTORS!

[23:07] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: STUPID RAPTORS!

[23:07] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: STUPID RAPTORS!

[23:07] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: STUPID RAPTORS!

[23:07] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: STUPID RAPTORS!

[23:07] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: STUPID RAPTORS!

[23:07] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: STUPID RAPTORS!

[23:07] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: STUPID RAPTORS!

[23:07] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: STUPID RAPTORS!

[23:17] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: STUPID RAPTORS!

[23:17] Joseph says: CHILDS IS AN IDIOT

[23:17] Joseph says: OMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMGGGGGGGGG’

[23:17] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: STUPID CHILDS

[23:17] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: STUPID CHILDS

[23:17] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: STUPID CHILDS

[23:17] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: STUPID CHILDS

[23:17] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: STUPID CHILDS

[23:17] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: STUPID CHILDS

[23:17] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: 5 Seconds!!!

[23:17] Joseph says: NO HE WAS SOOO PAID

[23:17] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: OMG!

[23:18] Joseph says: HE WAS SOOOO PAID

[23:18] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: LOL!!!

[23:18] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: Agh!

[23:18] Joseph says: WHAT KIND OF IDIOT SHOOTS LIKE THAT WITH SOME TIME LEFT>>>

[23:18] Joseph says: HE WAS PAID

[23:18] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: OMG GUY! I was getting back hope!

[23:19] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: When stackhouse missed that shot..

[23:19] Joseph says: i hated childs from the start

[23:19] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: Flick guY!

[23:19] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: I actualyl though they were gonna win!

[23:19] Joseph says: that was just idiocy

[23:19] .·´¯`·- Mävërïck:..: Yesyes

Yah, I watched What a Girl Wants… I was just eating breakfast man, and my mom was watching it… and then I was reading the news paper, and she was still watching it.. And then I was just into the movie, so there was no point in leaving. Haha. It wasn’t bad… very redundant. very typical though. *sigh* this is what my saturday mornings have amounted to. How sad.

Meh, It’ll probably be more exciting than the next couple of months tho.. When my big saturday excitement is getting to sleep in till 10AM, and having a big brunch, then playing Risk or whatever nerdy board game I’m in to just then…

Hmm, so, I’m watching Pimp My Ride.. stupid name, but awesome show. Alls I’m saying, Xzibit, why dont you come down here and pimp *my ride… you know put them 17-inch rims in my 99 Ford Windstar… maybe a DVD player, with those 10-inch screens… I would not mind that at all.. well maybe my parents would, my dad already gets mad at me when I pump the volume up a little.. Which by the way is going to make the next 30 minutes a little less-exciting.. My dad.. he’s a good driver, excellent driver you might even say.. But just a little too cautious. I mean, I’m cautios too, but I can do it with the music blasting (that is, as much blasting as these nasty speakers in the van can, which again is more reason for Xzibit to come knocking at my door asking for my keys)…

Anway, we’re going to ‘Suaga again today to play at a baby dedication.. See, my family’s a little bit like the family Von Trapp… My dad’s on the guitar, I’m on the piano, my bro on the drums, and my mom singing.. Add a couple more singers a bass and lead guitar, and we got our band, Version 6:23… Don’t look at me, I didn’t think of the name.. I just play the piano for them, and part time too right now, me going away to school soon and all. It’s ok tho, they take me to alot of Filipino churches though, which is fine by me with all these filipino girls and all.. haha.

Ok well, meh that’s it… Livin’ for Him.. day after day.

Ever feel like your life is just spinning completely out of control?

Well I’m feeling unusually… Not lazy, so I might as well take advantage of this. Here be my theories on the Digital Music Players. Notice I didn’t write “MP3 Players” because amazingly, people, there are more Digital Music out there than just Mp3s.

Anway, here are the types of Digital Music Players there is.. There’s the Hard Drive Players – like the IPods it’s also called Digital Jukebox. There’s the Flash/SD/CF/CD/built in RAM players, which is the most common one you see. Finally, there’s the Mini Disc players…

Hmm, where to begin. Well basically, each of these types have their own pros and cons, but of course what I do here is not compare these pros and cons and come up with what I think is the best, and defend it like heck, just as I’m blasting the rest… Well maybe not the rest, but at least the ones I think are the most useless.

Let’s start with that. Hard Drive Players… USELESS. USELESS. USELESS. USELESS. USELESS. And again I say, USELESS. It’s as simple as this, WHO NEEDS 30 GIGABYTES OF MUSIC??? 30 GIGS! That’s how big my hard drive is. And even if it was bigger (when I didn’t have my hard drive and I was using my dad’s computer), I still didn’t have that much music. At my peak, I probably had 10 gigabytes of music on my computer.. 2 Gigabytes of Mp3, and the rest in WMA format (Windows Media Player), which I pumped up the quality, which meant each song was about 10-15 megs each… So yeah. Why? I mean, I love music and all, really I do… I would be a Music Major right now in Calgary if God hasn’t called me a different way… But if you have 30 gigs of music, and actually *listen* to all of it, then dang, you have problems.

Ok fine, I’ll admit, I own in excess of… 50 cds. And that’s just what I personally own, that doesn’t include some cds that my bro and my parents have that I listen to… But I don’t listen to them all.. In fact, some of those cds in there, I listen to maybe twice a month, if even that.

Comon, be honest to yourself. If you have that much songs, do you *really* listen to all of those? Yeh… Useless..

So what would be better? Right now, I personally have an MD player… Ok here’s the deal. MD players and the Flash players (Which by deffinition doesn’t go past 512 megabytes of memory space) are about the same. The difference is ofcourse, the MD has cartridges that you change, while the Flash players either have built in memory, or removable flash cards. This is the level of space that I would need… here’s the breakdown.

MD players can have up to 80 minutes of Music, which, multiplied by Sony’s MDLP technology, means that each disc can actually hold 320 minutes of music. This translates to about 70-90 songs, depending on how long the songs are, or 210-270 megabytes of memory space, again depending on how long the songs are. That’s *one* md, which is about 5 bucks each, or 3 if you buy it somewhere cheap.

Contrast that with MP3 players, which go from 64 (very rare now) right up to 512 megs (SUPER EXPENSIVE)… The average Mp3 Player would have 128 or 256 Megabytes.. This translates to about… 40-80 songs per mp3 player.. Unless you have extra memory cards, which go for 40 bucks for 64 megs, $50 for 128, $60 for 256… and I think… $150 for 512.. Don’t quote me on those prices, but those sound about right..

Now in terms of the units themselves, the lowest priced MD player $150 dollars. while the high end ones, can go up to $500 dollars. Size, weight and strenght of the MD player is affected by the price, but all of the md players have the same memory capacity. Comparing that to the Flash Players, which go from about 80 dollars for a 64 mb player, to about 250 dolalrs for a 256 mb player… (By the way, all these prices are in Canadian).

Whaa.. Had the boys over last night, little get together. Actually, we’re all college students (well, almost all, my bro is a Senior in High School, well in September at least, and so are like 2 other guys, but most my other friends are in Post-Secondary), and we still have sleep overs. Haha. It turned out to be a bit of a LAN party… But I don’t do that stuff.. too nerdy. If my friends wanna come over and use my LAN to paly RPGs, good, just don’t call it a LAN party. But meh, we had 4 laptops here and a desktop (there was… 7 of us..) I think only the high school kids didn’t have computers.

But anyway, me and my buddy Emman were having a late night snack around 2AM, we was having Bagels and Phillie Creme Cheese, and we just got to talking about Phillip Creme Cheese. He was wondering why I was putting so much Creme Cheese on, and so I was telling him how much I liked Creme Cheese (yeah you knwo how these late-night conversasions can get). See I liked Phillie Creme Cheese and Bagels so much that I went down to Dominion just an hour earlier, at 1AM to buy some. Anyway, we got to talking about the commercial though.. Oh I know what he said.. I put like this huge chunk of Creme Cheese on this tiny piece of bagel, and he was like, “Hey you’re not that Angel.” and I was like… yeah! you know me, any little thing can get me started on my little thiseses… Or is it Thesis… Meh..

But yeah, see I have this thing about commercials. There are some commercials that I CAN’T STAND. To the point where I just have to change the channel whenever they come on (eg. That stupid new Nestea commercial, you know: “where do they go when they drink nesteaaaa..” ARgh, I just wanna slap that guy just now…) I dun wanna try to remember which commercials I hate, cause I only had like 3 hours of sleep (I gotta get up early cause I got a physical today).. But yeah, the Phillie Creme cheese, with the Angel and her Man-servant, is one of the most loathesome to me… First of all, how come guys become man-servants in heaven??? Or is it just the hot, hunky ones like me? But the real kicker.. And I really love this, is the YOGA in Heaven?? Like.. comon! So they got Yoga in heaven now eh? You have no idea how insulting that is as a Christian.. And man, if you call yourself a Christian, I really hope you know how insulting that is.

Quickie lesson, and seriously, a quickie lesson cause I need to get ready and all for the doctor… But Yoga is a spiritual meditation thingie done by the Hari Krishnas… The pseudo-ocultic group that’s taken over much of intellectual America.. Well it did at least in the 1970s. And you wonder how they did it? Yeah it’s in the Yoga.. Disguised as a “healthy choice” exercise, they got millions of people doing it. Man, I actually had to supervise a Yoga class (I was Assistant Manager for a rec center, and one of the days I was supervising the rec center, they had Yoga classes). And granted most of the mainstream yoga is mostly de-spiritualized now, but still, it’s appaling how widespread yoga has become, and how accepted it is…

Anyway, I just got the brilliant idea to look up the “real” Christian perspective on Yoga, cause honestly, all I knew about it was it was bad… cause it’s from the Hari Krishnas… But here is something from Bible.com…

“Regarding the yoga asanas or physical postures Swami Vivekananda writes in his book Raja Yoga : ‘A series of exercises, physical and mental, is to be gone through every day until certain higher states are reached. Nerve currents will have to be dispatched and given a new channel. New sorts of vibrations will begin: the whole constitution will be remodeled, as it were.’”

– yeah that’s a huugge clue right there.. That’s the true purpose of Yoga, people, it’s not just exercise like.. pilates or tae bo.

“(in Yoga..) Manipulating the spine through various yoga postures is believed to increase the energy flow from the subtle body altering the consciousness of the individual. Kundalini yoga and hatha yoga directly manipulate the charkas through their various postures and breathing exercises. In a mind over body relationship mantra yoga also seeks to alter consciousness of an individual by the repetition of mantras, which Guru Dev, the guru of Maharishi Mahesh Yogi, considered the “favorite names of the gods”. Mantras are repeated silently or audibly up to several hours and produce altered states of consciousness.”

– Ahah! See now I’m starting to remember.. I actually took an Intro to Eastern Religions class in school last year, it focused mainly on Hinduism and the Hari Krishnas. And yeah, that’s it, Yoga is meant to be done to alter consciousness and to “attach” yourselves to one of the Hari Krishna gods…

“Yoga is bound up in Eastern religious metaphysics and is not an innocent form of relaxing the body and the mind. The goal of yoga is the same as that of Hinduism, which is realizing that one is Brahman, the underlying impersonal God of the Universe in Hinduism.”

– Straight forward there huh? that’s the purpose of Yoga…

The Christian answer to this? “The Bible does not teach that through yoga man can attain progressive higher levels of consciousness so that man will realize he is one with God and merge with Brahman as Hinduism teaches or that man’s personality can be extinguished as a flame is extinguished as Buddhism teaches. The Bible does not mention or recognize yoga or any system where man can become one with God. ”

Man is sinful, and is such “fatally flawed”. “God is so far above man that man cannot work his way up to God through his own actions.” it says in Romans 3:23, “all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.” but see, God loved man so much that he could not just allow man to fall, “for the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life” (Romans 6:23). God’s love for us caused Him to go to great lengths to save us, it says in John 1:14 that God Himself became man in order to save man… “And the Word became flesh, and dwelt among us, and we saw His glory, glory as of the only begotten from the Father, full of grace and truth. ” This was in the form of Jesus Christ. Christ, living a perfect, sinless life, then gave up that life, took the punishment for us, in order that we may live… “But God demonstrates His own love for us in this: while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” (Romans 5:8).

By this, we are saved from our sins and can have eternal life with Christ our Saviour and King: “That if you confess with your mouth, ‘Jesus is Lord,’ and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you confess and are saved. 11As the Scripture says, ‘Anyone who trusts in him will never be put to shame.’” (Romans 10:9-11)…

And so? “Man doesn’t have to become God. God stretches forth His hand (Revelation 3:20) and all you have to do is take it by making a conscious decision to accept Jesus Christ. Ask him humbly to take charge of your life in simple words. Then the Holy Spirit will indwell you and you will have peace, joy, and certainty. Only then will you shed your old cocoon and experience God’s metamorphosis.”

People know this song as something by Mandy Moore… But NOOO… It’s a Christian song sung by, well most of you should know them too, Switchfoot. It was written by Jonathan Foreman, that has an explanation. It is *not* a love song, my Only Hope is not a person, well it is a person, but not a person as people might normally think, but the person is Jesus Christ alone. Here’s the lyrics to the song…

There’s a song that’s inside of my soul

It’s the one that I’ve tried to write over and over again

I’m awake in the infinite cold

But You sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands

And pray to be only Yours

I pray to be only Yours

I know now You’re my only hope

Sing to me of the song of the stars

Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again

When it feels like my dreams are so far

Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands

And pray to be only Yours

I pray to be only Yours

I know now You’re my only hope

I give You my apathy

I’m giving You all of me

I want Your symphony

Singing in all that I am

At the top of my lungs I’m giving it back

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands

And pray to be only Yours

I pray to be only Yours

I know now You’re my only hope

Notice all the “Yours/You’re” are capitalize, that’s the recognize our Lord’s Deity. Also, Mandy Moore’s version changed one word, where it says “I give you my apathy” she put, destiny in place of apathy. Which is fine, it’s pretty good, but apathy is alot better. Apathy means “not caring” basically. It’s saying that I’m giving you this part of me that could care less that You are the one I truly need. Not money, drugs, sex… Or hey, even the “normal” stuff that people live for, like goodness, morality and such. That’s not hope, only Jesus Christ is hope. He’s the Only Hope. *gasp*. Anyway. enough about my rant about Mandy Moore… Here’s Jonathan Foreman’s explanation of the song…

“For our band (Switchfoot), this year was one of growth and growing pains. Much of who we are was pulled and stretched and left undone. For me, I felt insufficient, that I didn’t have what it takes. I wrote song after song, but so much of what I longed to say was stuck somewhere inside of me. Even my best was not good enough. At one of my lowest moments, this song was given to me, I say given, because I think God sang this song to me at the end of the day. When my human efforts fell short and I lay exhausted at His feet, this was, and is, His lullaby to me. The song really says so much about what I was. I remember playing it over and over again, crying softly before my God. But I believe that ‘Only Hope’ is much bigger than just my experience, this is a song for everyone. There is a breaking down, there is a surrendering; there is only one hope.” – Jon Foreman

I highlighted some important parts there… Like insufficiency.. that’s real important, cause everyone is *insufficient* every big name pastor or speaker out there, yes they’re all insufficient. Think the giants of the Christian faith, the Billy Grahams, the Max Lucados, the Lee Strobels. They’re all insufficient in one way or another, because the only thing that has made them sufficient is Jesus Christ. And the beauty is that Jesus Christ makes us sufficient as well. This is really something to think about, something to surrender, to give up, to break apart to break down. The pride in our lives that says I can do it alone. ‘Cause I can’t, ’cause even my best isn’t good enough, ’cause I am insufficient. Only Christ is Sufficient.

…. Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that you will abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. – Romans 15:13

Wahhh… Meh, lah… Been doing some reorganizing, on the page that is. I’m sure the side is alot more noticable now, with all that new features.. Words to Live by, etc… And of course my favourite poem, Back to Jesus Alone. Added a links thing too, and stuff.. and we’re off. The side is super big now though, so I need to catch up with my posting.. But that shouldn’t be that hard. new Thesis coming up. it’ll probably be the last for a while.

Gonna try to figure out how this email thing works… You send an email somewhere, and it posts it on the Blog Automatically. How cool is that? That’d be real important for me seeing as I’d barely have Internet Access at my school.

Yeah that’s right, a year without the internet… Not just that, a year without TV, proper laundry… etc etc. LOL. The joys of living alone. The thing about Capernwray is that it’s smack down in the middle (well not really) of an Island. Thetis Island to be exact. And yeah, there’s not much in there, they can’t even get a DSL line (GASP!). My school has to have Sattelite Internet to have some semblance of high speed, and if students want access, they need to plug in to a phone booth and dial long distance. I did that for a month last year, till my money ran out.. BIG MISTAKE. Anyway, it’s not exactly completely out of those precious living ammenities. I can get internet at the library across the bay to the nearest town (called Chemainus), it’s only a 40 minute Ferry Ride away. I can also pay for internet at the internet cafe (also in Chemainus), but that’s mad expensive, and all I really get extra is getting on MSN. Or, on rare occasions, I can ask the school to use their internet, which they’re more than happy to oblige, except I’d really have to keep it down to the bare minimums. Last year I only used that whenever my dad sent me money through Email Money Transfers.

No TV as well, except for the staff homes, which you can sometimes visit, or yeah you guessed it, Chemainus. There’s a restaurant in Chemainus where we got to watch the Hockey Playoffs last year (GO LEAFS GO! or wait… it was the Canucks we watched at that restaurant). Other than that, we had to rely on radios and… ourselves for amusement.

Feeling appreciative of your homes right now? Haha. Meh, it’s a blast though, 130 students living in close proximity to each other, without TV and without the Internet… Makes for a very fun time, not to mention the school’s property is HUGE, and covered with hiking paths (that sadly I never really took advantage of) and big fields where we can play ball. We had a waterfront too, which is actually an oceanfront seeing as it touches the Pacific. But yeah, it’s a cold-water beach, so we didn’t exactly go swimming every day.

What we did do lots of was jump of the Government Docks… the Govy as the Germans called it. Sometimes at low tide, it can get as high as 10 meters.. That’s about the height them wicked cool olympic divers dive from. Here’s some pic…

my buddy, Robby, jumping

yeah that’s me up top… (there’s no pic of my jumping off like the awesome one above this, cause these Germans didn’t know how to take proper pictures… haha, jokes, Robby and Albie, you know I love you guys)