Well… it looks like my employment at Old Navy has officially ended… if earlier than expected. I’m a little sad cause I missed my last two shifts (Exam on Thursday, and was sick on Saturday). But ah well. I guess I’m too excited to kind off… uhh. care right now. Hehe. Oh the possibilities… Like actually putting some more effort into this site.

Effort #1 – I’ve been working on this Autobiography thing for forever now, and I think I’ll finally finish it.
Effort #2 – well ok, this is just a thought, but if I’m feeling adventurous enough, I think I’ll actually redesign the site with my own HTML coding…
Effort #3 – actually, well, that’s it, oh… Well of course there are all those thoughts that I’ve been wanting to put down for a while.. but haven’t found the chance to do so. Things about life… religion… Blue Like Jazz… hehe. And such. And I like this idea too that my friends from Capernwray have been talking about… about writing another year end assignment… uhh. not really in the mood to explain that now.. if I do it, I’ll explain it.

Anyway. Last Monday was a study day for me. Which meant I studied. Kindoff… Tuesday, my parents left for BC, so I dropped them off. And then studied again the rest of the day. Wednesday, was my PoliSci exam. It was uhh… A little frustrating now. It was actually a really easy exam. It was great. They asked a question they asked in the Mid-Term, and it’s the question I got perfect on too – it was about “Responsibility to Protect”. What really bummed me out is that I know for a fact that i messed it up, cause I left out some important facts about it. So yeah. That’s like 10 free marks that I let get away… I’m still expecting possibly a mid to high 80 on the exam, which should put me above 80 for the course. That would be real nice.

After the exam, I kinda bummed around all day, feeling really lazy and pretty mentally drained. But that just meant that I had more studying to do on Thursday. But I got through it all, and now I’m just awaiting my marks. Phew. Friday was a lazy day. Didn’t do much, kindoff… cherishing the moment. It was too cold to go to the beach as I planned before (actually I tried it, stayed for like 10 minutes, then left). Then Saturday, I had a really bad headache so I called in sick to work. Josh slept over on Saturday… it was supposed to be most of TGIF cause my parents are away, but yeah. Didn’t work out. Most of them were away, and besides, we actually did just sleep cause we had to go to church early the next morning.

Sunday was again pretty typical… By which I mean, 9AM, Church… 1:30PM, Orchestra… 6:30PM, Trec… But in between we kinda hung around. Then today, I went to Cambridge with the College guys… Josh had to drop off his application at Heritage. That was pretty fun, except coming home (for which I volunteered to drive), we encountered major traffic. Bleh.

Ok, well. That’s about all that happened. Tommorow is College guys hang out again… Well pretty much every day until we all start working, or till the high school kids get out of school, are hang out days. I’m gonna be picking up my parents and my bro from the airport in about an hour so yeah. the house will be full once more. I’m thinking now that it actually is a good thing that no one stayed with me this past week that my parents were away, cause if so, then I’d have alot more to clean tonight than what I had to…

I’m reading Da Vinci’s Quest right now… I think I mentioned that before. It’s excellent writing… I’m really liking Dan Brown… Probably as much as John Grisham (but deffinately not WEB Griffin). Of course there’s the whole.. heresy thing. LOL, about Mary Magdalene being Jesus’ wife and.. well pretty much the whole discrediting the Christian faith and all.. But yeah, you just gotta learn to ignore it. Alright. Shower. Read some more. Then I gotta go.

Ok so, I woke up at 8AM this morning… Not cause I needed to, but because I wanted to! Actually I was too excited about my plans… that is… lol. my plans to do nothing all day! Whoppee…

Well actually, I didn’t do nothing (I’m about to start the doing nothing thing…). First I went down to Walmart to buy a folding arm chair (I decided I’d buy that first instead of a hammock, and well, later on I’m not buying a hammock but a “muskoka” chair… a wooden lounging chair, for my backyard). Anyway, I didn’t like the ones they had, well.. that is, I didn’t see any prices, so I thought forget it, I’m just gonna get it from Canadian Tire. So all I got there was a pack of Nestea and some Pringles to snack on…

Anyway, after Walmart, I decided to run down to Chapters to buy a book… Yeah I decided to neglect the ones I have already… I got Da Vinci’s Code… decided I needed to see what all the fuss was about. After Chapters, I went down first to Rona, then to Canadian Tire to check out the chairs. Well it was the same issue there… no prices, and poor selection… So I decided it was better at Walmart. So I went down there, where they finally got the prices up, and I found out that theirs were kinda cheap, and I didn’t like it.. So bleh, I went back down to Canadian Tire and finally settled on this Roots arm chair…

That’s the picture from the Canadian Tire site… I couldn’t get a picture of my chair cause my parents have the good camera and the USB cord…

Anyway. I’m just chilling the Nesteas now… but I’m starting to have second thoughts about going down to the beach cause it’s pretty cold… but we’ll see….

Somehow, the air smelled sweeter today as I walked away from that UofT building… yes, it is true, as of 9PM Eastern Time this, 4th day of May 2006… I am free of my 1st year in University. I’m not really in a reflective mood right now. I feel relieved that I’m done, but I received less than good marks on my last 2 term papers (at least less than I was expecting) and I’m not all that confident with the subsequent exams… But whatever. I’m free!!!

Tommorow, I’m going down to either Walmart or Canadian Tire, buying either a hammock or a nice folding chair (depends on whether or not I want it to be mobile…), and I’m gonna sit down and read for a coupla hours… I originally planned to go fishing, as was my MSN name the past couple of days (keeps me sane – fishing on friday…) but unfortunately, I found out that it will cost me quite a bit of money to buy a fishing license, so I’m not sure if I wanna do that anymore… Well definately not tommorow, but if I’m gonna drop 50 bucks on a license, I’m gonna want to make sure I’m actually gonna use it.

Anyway, I’ll relax in a different way. There’s a bunch of books I’ve been neglecting (or a bunch of books I may want to reread… though that would me I’ll have to neglect those other books some more). So yeah. Horay!!

Here’s the home stretch… two exams left to go, and bam, that’s it… And also, as implied by the title here, I’m giving my notice at Old Navy… I promised tGif that I would do so, and yeah, I’m doing it tommorow. I’ve been feeling really mature and grown up lately, mainly cause I’ve been getting alot of grown up – type thoughts… hehe. Thoughts about the future and stuff. Which is where I’m coming from here. Two weeks and I’m done at Old Navy and then I’ve got a bit of a break before my summer really takes off. So uh yeah, that’s some good time to evaluate, and really look at my life and what I’ve accomplished this past year.

But yeah, that’s in the future… As for now… Wednesday, I think actually managed to get some studying done. But not much. Thursday, as usual, I was at work, same with Friday. Then on Saturday, I went downtown to study, but unfortunately I couldn’t get much done. I hate this class! Argh. RLG101… I mourn for the day I chose to take you… bleh. gotta get through this last week and I’m home free… Next year, I plan to take French, American History and Politics (2 separate classes)… Political Thought/Theory… and this really cool class, Modern Espionage. It’s going to be a sweet year. The year after, I plan to take Canadian Politics and History… and yeah, whatever I come up with (as well as whatever I need to, according to my major)…

Anyway, after a few hours of fruitless studying downtown, I finally decided to just call it quits and go this youth rally that Julius had been inviting me to. It was pretty good.. The band was called Humbled, an all filipino band. It’s got me wanting to be in a band again (as opposed to an orchestra)… We’ll see what happens. I also really enjoyed the atmosphere, the small church service (again, as opposed to Morningstar). Eh… Anyway, after the service, we went to Noodles Delight for supper (we being Me, Julius, Anthony and David). That was pretty good too, being a good 8-9 months since my last time going there. Oh Kwung Tung how I love you… After that, we went to church and just hung out a bit till around 11 when I finally went home.

This morning was typical… Service at 9, hung out at Wendy’s then took Joe V. home. I let him drive from Ling to his road (I forget the name) but yeah… that was the most terrified I’ve ever been in a car… LOL. And more than half of tGif drove with me their first time… Anyway, I was home long enough to take a dump and pick up my orchestra music… then I stoped by my parent’s church to drop me off at orchestra. After orchestra, Josh picked me up and we all hung out (most of tGif) at Anthony’s, after which was trec…

This brings us up to now, and all of my grown up-type thoughts.. and my two exams… and my two weeks notice… and this sinking feeling in my stomach that tells me that I’m not really all that comfortable with the way things are happening. *sigh*

This is the point when I’m supposed to say something uplifting, that yeah, God will be there… And I don’t have to worry… just trust in Him and everything will be alright. I dunno. It would just seem like saying things like that is a lie… Not that God isn’t there… but that God being there means that I should feel better. No that’s not how it works. I was just reading a piece of this lesson that I did with tGif a few years ago… Actually it was from the Principles of Christian Living, that was taught by Bruce Campbell during my first year at Capes… It said, the Christian Life is provided by God’s mercy, sustained by grace, initiated by faith, empowered by the Holy Spirit, and (what I’m talking about just now…) justified by hope. See just because I don’t *feel* all that great about my circumstance right now, doesn’t mean that I’ve lost hope in Christ. Just the opposite. Nothing gives me greater hope than feeling out of control… control is not what I want right now… it’s not what i want ever… But yeah. I don’t have to feel great about it…

Joy isn’t what most people say it is. That is, unspeakable happiness… Not that would imply that joy is an emotion. It isn’t. Joy is the response of the heart in spite of all the turmoil in the world… In the same way, hope isn’t an emotion. It’s not feeling good about the future, or even longing for something better… but rather, the “conviction of things not seen”…

Anyway, I thought I wasn’t supposed to write anything deep and profound during exam time. But yeah, I seem to be doing alot of things I’m not supposed to be doing during exam time (like sleeping in till noon…).